You have to keep driving, James, it’s the only way, James, you don’t know if you’ve been going forward or backward anymore, James, if you started going one direction, but turned around and found the way you came in now gone, but then the car is turned around again, are you now driving forward or backward, James, it doesn’t matter, James, keep your foot on the gas, James, there are no more directions, James, there are no more mile markers, James, just all the abandoned cars on the side of the road with odometers that have already stopped spinning at two triple nines, James, no more life or death, James, there is only moving and not moving, James, and you’ve never been tasked with an easier choice, James, your whole life you’ve been asked to choose, James, it’s never been put this simply to you before, James, so you can’t stop now, James, don’t you know that nine out of ten gamblers give up right before they hit it big, so you can’t stop now, James, there’s gotta be someone out there watching you, there’s gotta be someone out there who wants you to keep going, James, who can see how hard you’re pushing yourself, I want you to keep going, James, you have to keep digging for diamonds, James, what if they’re right on the other side of that dirt, James, you can’t help but read all the signs, James, everything has to mean something to you, James, but I know you’re really a nihilist, James, you’ve been striving your whole life and there’s nothing left for you, James, you remember that premo position in the upper middle class, don’t you, James, yeah, the one that was promised to you, yeah that one, James, well it doesn’t exist anymore, James, even though you’ve always performed in the highest percentiles, you’ve always known you were better, James, everyone told you so even when they said nothing to you at all, James, they all had such high hopes for you, James, were you really doing all that just for them, James, no one cares anymore, James, no one cares what you want anymore, James, and now that the world has ended, you finally have a reason to start trying, James, but you’ve secretly always cared, James, but they don’t pay you to care, James, James, they don’t pay you at all, but they still expect results, James, you’ve always been reliable, James, you’re so predictable, James, and weak, James, good soldiers follow orders, James, just put the As on the tests bro, you know a gunman can’t beat 50 hawks, James, you’re a contrarian, James, everyone else gave up, James, the only people who put up with you, James, why are you praying, James, you don’t even believe in God, James, you probably prayed before every math test too, you heretic, and cursed yourself each morning that you woke up again because you want a life that’s already been settled for you, James, you say you want oxytocin and serotonin levers in your medically induced coma, huh James, but you know it needn’t last forever, just a week or two and you’d feel better, right, James, finally some real fucking sleep, James, just to take off some of the pressure, maybe then people would see what they’ve done to you, James, their words that you’ve taken as law, James, you want them to look down and cry over your unconscious body, James, none of them understand that sinking, hollow feeling in your stomach, James, they don’t get it, James, they don’t think you feel the same things that they do, James, but you do, James, you just don’t cry over spilled milk, man James, you look tired, James, and nothing can fix that because you’re not gonna end up like them, James, that’s your worst fear, isn’t it James, to end up like everyone else, admit it James, everyone is lying to themselves, James, you’re no different, James, you think you’re better than them because you see the world for what it really is, James, they’re idealists, James, you didn’t want them to eat the Clif bar, James, you didn’t want them to turn off the ignition, James, you didn’t want to change any variables, James, you secretly wanted to keep driving forever, didn’t you, James, you’ve pushed everyone away, James, they understood much sooner than you that things wouldn’t last forever, but they still enjoyed the ride, James, you’re the nostalgic one, James, not them, James, you hate nostalgia because you know it’s unavoidable, James, you hate it because just like yourself it’s everywhere you go, James, you hate yourself, James, you were so ready to leave them all behind again, James, but now look at you, James, what were you trying to prove, James, you can try to make it to the end, James, but you’ll have no friends left, James, you’ll do it for you, James, but you’ll really be doing it for them, James, you’ll always learn the lesson too late, James, you have to do things the hard way, James, you always have to play your part, James, you had to see it through to the end, James, you’re obsessive, James, you’re too nonchalant, James, while they had their fun and vented their frustrations, you bottled it up, James, you know there’s gotta be a way out of here, James, and you think you’ll be the one person in the history of the world to find it, James, but James, what’s an accomplishment without someone to share it with, James, without someone to celebrate with, James, that’s all you ever wanted, isn’t it, James, but it’s always been you, James, alone, working diligently in your room, silent James, keep-your-head-down James, don’t-rock-the-boat James, top-of-the-class James, you hate that you need their approval, James, it was all for nothing, James, that life was taken from you and no one is as mad as you, James, you’re a beast, James, you thought you had your whole life planned out and you actually bought it, ha, James, you thought you were the lone gunmen, James, but you’re one of the rats, James, you were never gonna be professional managerial material, you’re a fool, James, a damn fool, you know what, James, you were meant to drive alone, James, you could’ve made something of yourself, James, now you’re crying and eating an energy bar with a stomach that no longer runs on energy, that’s because you have no impulses left, James, you don’t even know what you want anymore, James, since every bodily need has already been solved for you, James, so why are you so fucking sad, James, you neglected all its pleasures, James, you can’t be satisfied anymore, James, you realize that, don’t you, James, there is nothing inherent to you and this is the real world, James, everything’s been evacuated, it’s not a desert but a forest, James, but you must still take care, James, so eat your peanut butter Clif bar and cry, James, nothing will ever taste that good, James, everything tastes better with salt, James, but watch your sodium, James, it’s not good for your heart and you need to keep driving, James, when it rains you can’t see no matter how fast the windshield wipers go, James, you know what you’re capable of, James, how much you can endure, they could talk about suicide attempts and panic attacks all the live long day, James, but oh no no, not you, James, that would be unbecoming, James, you have to keep up the performance even after the theater has long burned down, James, you need to keep driving because you never put the barrel to your temple or the pills in your mouth or the razor to your wrists, James, no, you had people counting on you, James, there wasn’t time for all that, James, so get back in the saddle, James, you’ve never been able to truly throw in the towel, James, no one can take a punch like you, James, they don’t understand how badly you needed this, James, how much you want to be a machine, James, you’re not a quitter, James, you’re just burnt out, James, you’re a striver, James, but you’re just burnt out, James, you always give it your all after there’s no point left, James, but life isn’t Fury Road, James, the line you drive out and back is not lined with storms of fire, James, the end of the world isn’t that interesting, James, you’re not Mad Max, James, drop the act, James, go back for your friends, James, tell them you love them, tell them you miss them, make some new friends, tell them you’re sorry, tell them you got to the end and there was nowhere left to go, nothing but emptied cars, molted cicada husks left behind by every other James, get in the car and turn around, you already didn’t know what direction you were going anyway, so keep driving, James, it ends but it never ends, does that make sense, James, you understand me, don’t you?